NOELYN DOESNT LIKE TAGBOARDS BCUS THEY ARE DISGUSTING.

i like bigbang, u-kiss, beast, kara, t-ara, brown eyed girls, 2NE1, 4Minute, Switchfoot, SS501, 2PM, Owl City, Boys Like Girls, Tokio Hotel, Pink, Taylor Swift, Howie Day, SNSD, DBSK, Jay Chou, After School, Son Dambi, Daughtry, Dashboard Confessional, FM Static, Davichi, David Archuleta, Epik High, The Fray, Katy Perry & Kelly Clarkson.

i never knew sec 3 was so tough.
its so difficult to juggle so many things at one go.
sometimes i'll just break down because of all these pressure.
first, schoolwork.
it.never.ends.
NEVER, EVEREVEREVER.
after one test, another one comes along.
after the next one, more homework, more projects, more quizzes.
remedials.retests.failure.
i study in the morning, i study in the afternoon after school, i study at night.
my WHOLE DAY IS WASTED ON studystudystudy..
and my class, is full of those people who pretend to slack.
apparantly they go home and mug-.-

and there are friendships.
you think i actually enjoy being angry at people?
feeling hatred when i look at someone?
Love your enemies and pray for those who persecute you (Matthew 5:43-44).
easier said than done.
im human too you know. im still so childish.
cant just change because you tell me to.
i hate it that im this way, bearing grudges for my WHOLE life.
bet the whole world will hate me by the time im 30.

then, there is cca.
im like- getting from bad to worse.
my juniors are way way way better than me, not a nice feeling.
at all.
not that im angry at them or what but, im really disappointed with myself.
when the section gets scolded for our bad tone, i get all sad and depressed all over again.
i'll feel like i've let mayves down.
and my seniors.
its all my fault we sound so bad, but i have no idea what i can do about it.

next, my bass and my guitar.
i want SO BADLY to become a good bassist.
so much so much.
but theres so little time to practise,
and im so worried there would be a period of time when i dont even get to practise it at all.
stress.stress.stress.

yah and i havent been doing my quiet time for so long long long long long..
zzz
i feel really bad. every week i just blatantly forget about reading the bible.

and im bloody.freaking.short.
i run run run jump jump jump,
waste so much time on the treadmill,
but nothing happens.
everyday, i stay at the same height and my sister just gets taller and taller.

i dont even get to rest.
im getting EYEBAGS dammit.
i want to drop out of school, but i cant.

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